Even though I live in US and I’m way more comfortable with English these days, I still miss speaking Turkish so much. That’s why this blog is in Turkish. Honestly, I’m trusting your browser’s translation feature on this one.

This blog is about my life and my dreams.

There’s someone in my life who is incredibly special to me. I love this person more than anyone in the world, but at the same time, I’m deeply hurt by her. I don’t forget to be mad at her in some of my blog posts, either. I miss her. I haven’t seen her in ages.

But in my dreams, she’s with me every single night.

Some really strange things happen in those dreams. Sometimes I experience things that end up coming true in real life, and all I can do is sit there in disbelief. However, whenever I try to trust my dreams, though, my heart gets broken.

The years keep passing. I’m getting older. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll never get to see her again. Is this really how my story ends?

I hope I have a long life ahead of me, but over the last few years, I’ve been very sick. I’m dealing with the consequences of psychiatric medications I’ve taken throughout my life.

The worst part is that my heart is sick.

My child heart.

People know me as the girl with a child’s heart. My name is Sophie. I love writing blogs, reading blogs, and honestly, I love my little blog world. I’ve been this way ever since I learned how to read.

I work as an infant teacher at a daycare. Half the time it feels like I enrolled myself there as a kid because I have so much fun. It’s one of the few places where I don’t have to hide my inner child.

The place where I wake up in my dreams has a name:

Toy Kingdom.

And it really is a kingdom. It’s home to me, her, and the babies. In Toy Kingdom, I’m an Orange Cat. She’s a Panda. And the babies likely belong to four people who exist in real life:

William, Lucas, Blake, and Simon…

That’s the part that makes Toy Kingdom even more interesting.

With love,

Sophie